in the speed of light-

2009-06-03T13:22:00.002+08:00

I've moved! :D

2009-06-02T09:55:00.001+08:00

watch my life through a television

honestly, this was the coolest week ever with alot of stuff to say about everyday, but i've forgotten everything D: oh well! will start from this week on.

adios! :D

2009-05-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

i've never been happier(:

2009-05-21T18:28:00.002+08:00

Tux.

4 9268 2 484)): 4'6 76 76779. i wish i wouldn't be such a depressed moron. i really could've just let it be, it would have been easier. sighs. and now i feel unbelievably terrible about it. i love where i am now, i don't want it to ever change. i don't think i could ever deal with it.

p.s. 459.

2009-05-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

London, New York & Kansas

results sucked): i don't think i deserve what i got for A math and physics. i studied day and night for it, tsk. but i'm not demoralised *shakes head* nope, nope. i'll work harder. oh gosh, i feel so sad. i feel like i disappointed mr loh /: sighs. and shileng. gah, he's gonna be so upset)):

GAHH! GRR): !! UHH, PFFTT. sighs): tsk!

i'm angry

2009-05-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

Honey Flakes

happy now? :D

2009-05-18T20:20:00.002+08:00

Angels and Demons day! :D

i liked today, and i love that lady who thought i was gay, rofl.
well,

459. (:

2009-05-18T19:15:00.002+08:00

continue!

Day 3
trekking day! D: oh gosh, it was the most tiring thing i've ever done. i was all "grr.." at first cos i found myself so weak and couldn't keep on walking. but later i started singing with Sarah Teo! hahahaha! and we were so hyper that we were practically running. later Priya ate oreos and she started running with us and hopped with her giant bag, rofl! damn cool! we've suddenly got powerrrrr!! it was all about mentality. after such a long walk, we had to climb uphill, and was quite annoyed. but once we reached the top, it was breath-taking. instructor, " after your long climb, this is what pulau ubin has to offer you." it was totally worth it. every minute of that climb and walk was worth it((:

reached the public campsite, and oh gosh, the toilet sucked! i swear they reused the pee water! it was the same colour if you flushed it or not! D: !!! didn't get to shower that night. had sea expedition briefing in the night and went to ubin village. vesak day celebration was taking place then, so it was really crowded and bright, and we're actually quite lucky to see it cos not many people do so :D went back, and went to sleep.

Day 4
didn't sleep the whole night! insomnia strikes again): went to sleep at Sarah Teo's tent. weirdly, when i went there, she was awake.

Me: why're you awake Sarah?! it's 2 in the morning!
Sarah: the ocean sounds like mixing cornflakes D:

hahahaha! hungry little girl! rofl! we prepared for our expedition quite fast, and set off. there was a little rain at first and everyone was sharing alot of jokes in the tiny hut we were stuck in, hahaha! but after that we set off. we actally finished really fast, 4 hours, thanks to Alyssa's 'awesome' map reading skills, hahaha! but i'm glad we finished it quick. cleaned the kayaks, which was also fun, hahaha! and thennnn, jetty jump!!! :D me and nishan shouted each other's name before jumping in, hahaha! right after my jump, i saw a jellyfish with a heartshape on it! that little creature made my day. i wanted to see one for ages! hahahaha! HAPPPYYYY(:

had a long good shower, squeaky clean! :DD and celebration dinner! i liked the food, gosh it was tasty! hahaha! but that night, i was really quite excited to go home already(:

Day 5
got up to pack up everything, carried a bag of apples. bought t-shirt! :D everyone was really reluctant to go home, and we really didn't want to leave out instructor): but oh well, it's all about the memories right :D came back to school and stuff, cabbed back with Hilary. didn't like this day to much. sometimes, i think it's awkward if i go missing for some time. it makes me seem a little back in time. and with it raining as well, and me pms-ing, no matter what, friday sucked /: but heck, once i fell asleep i was happy again :DDDDD

kayysssss! everything about OBS is done :D

E-N-G-S-O-O-N!
we have survived till the end!
we like to eat oreos,
then we become cheerios!

2009-05-18T18:41:00.003+08:00

ENG SOON!

kayys, haven't blogged about OBS yet! :0 !! will do that now((:

Day 1
i was damn scared! D: i've got no ideaq why, but i was actually pretty nervous. the first thing i remember doing there is sorting out food. oh gosh, who'd have thought food would be so difficult to sort :0 !! funnyyyy, hahaha! next was trust fall! gah, i've always hated it. but oh well, i did it like second last. you know, though you're scared, you always know everyone below would catch you no matter what. so you actually don't need to worry(: telling the person falling "we'll catch you, trust us!" is not good enough, cos when you're the person up there it's difficult. but in the end, at the bottom when you're caught, it's this crazy thrill, like you flew! :D !!

we did belaying after that. doing that made us realise how important doing the trust fall was. when i was at the top, the instructor was like, "let go." and i was all "huh?!" and didn't wnat to, but i did anyways, and it was cool! i swear i was sit-floating, hahaha! everyone had a hand at belaying, it was funnnn!!

after that was done, we went back to pack for our expedition. we had to cook our own dinner that night. honestly, i've never eaten so many canned food in one go before, rofl! but it was actually tasty. i think i'm only saying that cos i was insanely hungry *shrugs* :D showered, then bed!

Day 2
it was a sleepless night! D: our campsite was high up in some foresty place, and very tiring to walk up and down to, and we had to do that a kazillion times D: we had morning games and light exercise with Dhanabalan! that's where we met Birin! :DDDD

Birin: good morning angels,
Crescentians: good morning charlieeee :D

hahahaha! it was damn damn cool! never knew his name till very mich later, heh. not my faultt! D: the first thing we had to do that day was our team's high element 'The Indiana'. i'm crazy scared of heights, but i completed my element anyway! you've got no idea how happy i was! :D Alyssa did it too! hahaha! i told her i'm not letting her down and will let her hang up there even if she let go, rofl! least it worked, she completed the whole thing. AWESOMEEEEE! watch buddy!! hahahah! belaying was tiring, just as tiring as climbing up the element itself. you're got to trust your belayers! uhuh! ((:

the last thing we did that day was kayaking and the capsize drill, together with Alyssa! :D honestly, CAPSIZING IS DAMN FUN! hahahaha! we learnt the tx-rescue, did it in the middle of the sea with yi qing and kar yee, did it super fast and finished first, heheh.. everyone kayak-ed to camp 2, had a shower and spent the night there(:

quote! :
Sarah Teo: how to spell kayaking?
instructor: spell it as "Kaya King"

hahahaha! will continue the rest later :D

2009-05-15T19:51:00.001+08:00

grr, tsk):

2009-05-10T08:43:00.002+08:00

Everytime that we meet,
I skip a heartbeat.

okay, everyone's got to listen to this. i love this band! thank you Nat for showing it to me, rofl!

scouting for girls (heheh..) - I'm not over you

i'm extremely bored, and free :D i like being free.. but it's awkward. everyone would have this feeling that something's missing, and it's a good something too. rofl. gosh, can't wait for school to end. HELLO ALYSSA AND NISHAN, MY OBS BUDDIESSSSS! SHOOT! IT'S GONNA BE SO FUN! :D HAHAHAHA! actually, i'm quite scared /: i've got no idea what to expect at all. night watch is gonna be fun, i really don't want to end up in someone else's tent like sherry's bro, rofl! but it should be awesome. and omg, so sandfly's! D: !!! heck the become so much darker part, but i don't want to be bitten as well, ahh): !!

kayys, one more day of freedom. might as well enjoy it, to the max! :D

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2009-05-06T15:56:00.000+08:00

it's a bigBIG secret. sshhh!

2009-05-01T11:38:00.001+08:00

PS IS AWESOME!!

HELLO PEARLYN! :D
GUESS WHO?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2009-04-24T17:21:00.005+08:00

I AM LEGEND.

today was awesome! rofl. i don't really know why thought. history rocked, and lit was a sleepy lesson, rofl. e maths was the usual, didn't make much sense, hahaha! then tamil! i find tamil like a play time lesson. i love going for it, rofl. it's not like we do anything much anyways, heh. physics is killing me D: oh gosh, hours and hours of it.. *plonk*

teacher: *talking about G.P.E.*
me: soo.. let's say the height is 4m, and the gravitational strength is 10 right? so your G.P.E. would be 10 x 4 x ? :D (A)
teacher: *shows fist*

rofl! it's damn funny! hahahaha!

teacher: you'd never see such simple questions, ever. it's an insult to you.
pearlyn: it's okay teacher! you can insult us all you want.

rofl! physics is kinda fun i guess. i likee :D though i can' exactly take hours of it, i'd die! slowly slowly(: oh gosh, i want to do more papers. so lazyyyy): and i feel so tired. the couch isn't the most awesomest place to fall asleep on. but least i woke up with a pillon and my blankey(: hahaha! it's either sleep walk, or mommy brought them. i rather sleep walk! :D

omg, everyone's got to see this! MY DREAM CAR!! I'M FOREVER GOING TO LOVE YOU CAR-Y. AND I'LL GET YOU SOME DAY :DDDDDD

(volvo s60 concept)

69 329 47 63837 26675383 9484688 968.

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do you know?
what it's like?
when it's wrong,
but it feels so right.

nothing in this world can stop us tonight,
i can do what she can do so much better.
nothing in this world can turn out the light,
i'm gonna make you feel alright, tonight.
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2009-04-19T17:44:00.001+08:00

I see you walk across my room in
Nothing but the moonlight
Now I love to see you in the dark

listen to song!! :D

Guilty Pleasure - Cobra Starship

And i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care about my guilty pleasure for you

and i don't even know
what kinda fool you're taking me for
so you've got some brand new clothes,
you never could afford before

oh brother spare us all
we don't care anymore
we just wanna get down on the floor
you sell yourself to make it
you can dish it, but can you really take it

you're never gonna get it with nothing
cause nothing's what you got in your head
so stop pretending

[2x]
i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you
shut up cause we won't stop
and we're getting down till the sun's coming up

and i don't even read
Guilty Pleasure
what the papers gotta say about me
oh, no i can't believe
they take it so serious, seriously

i'm so bored, oh please don't talk anymore
shut your mouth and get down on the floor

so cynical
poor baby i can dish it cause i know how to take it

you're never gonna win em all
so fuck em if they can't take a joke
i'm just playing

[2x]
i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you
shut up cause we won't stop
and we're getting down till the sun's coming up

and maybe someday i'll believe
(maybe someday i'll believe)
that we are all apart of some bigger plan
tonight i just don't give a damn
(so shut your mouth it's time to dance)
if the world is ending, i'm throwing the party

[repeat till fade out]
and i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you
shut up cause we won't stop
and we're getting down till the sun's coming up

2009-04-13T20:07:00.002+08:00

star world.

i don't remember what happened the whole weekk D: but i realized every science lesson is unbelievably hilarious, rofl! and E math is as usualy, confusing. A math.. ANOTHER EPISODE OF BARBIE AND FRIENDS :D history rocks! and uhh.. don't remember anything else.. oh! tamil! :D it's really not that bad.. hahaha!

second last lesson for french was last week. though i'm crazy tired because i need to wake up early on weekends, but i really think i'm going to miss damien and also the fact that i'm in a class with so many different sort of people. it's seriously super cool(: and i don't remember what i did with the rest of my saturday.. *shrugs*

my mommy and daddy came back home on sunday! and they bought me stuff! hahahaha! STUFF MAKES PEOPLE HAPPY :D i like stuff.. and my cousies have been coming over throughout the whole time, so it's been crazy cray fun, hahaha! omg, my cousie's hilarious! rofl!

*was a super cold night*
me: *wakes up. sees cousie. tickles his nose*
cousie: *hands were stuck in his blankey. refuses to take it out. starts wiggling his head*
me: *comtinues tickling*
cousie: *lifts head and starts whacking his face on the pillow*

hahahahahaha! who'd have expected that, rofl! sunday was quite a boring day, but oh well(:

i can't exactly put everything in a private post like you, so you can expect a letter kayys(:

well, i'm done for now!
byebyebye!

2009-04-05T13:03:00.002+08:00

FUN-tabulous

kayys! start with fridayy! :D i don't remember.. *slaps forehead* uhh.. pe.. omg, i fell! so gross! so gross! and i was itchy the whole day, rofl. and xue ling punched me cos i punched her, rofl! oh well. then E math. I MISS MRS GEK D: nooooo! she's got to come back! dyinggg.. A math.. physics.. ENGLISH! :D i think i enjoy english.. with the fact that i pass and it's a super fun class of cos, went back, tuition.. i like tuition, weirdly. i think it's cos the dude's damn nice, and i feel smarter after that, rofl! like everytime after A math me and pearlyn think that's we've been enlightened, hahaha! so friday was a no special events day.

saturdayyy! morning's lesson! oh gosh, i seriously don't want to meet him on the train. we sound all alien and every'd stare at us *slaps forehead* but it's so cool, centre of attraction :D and he really isn't that bad looking.. though he doesn't have hair, rofl! and i think it's only cos he's extremely nice that's why i'm saying that, heh. AND HE PLAYS HANDBALL! :0 !! never played it before. watched, but never played. went out with mommy to get more blouses. every single one of my school blouse (mineee) looks like someone stepped on it, hahaha! so sad, so now i've got to wear and extremely yellow shirt again): ! and i really need to sew my pe shirt, rofl. i ain't no free show! D: daddy's not in singapore, need to wait for him. the first one he called when he reached was meeee! :D not even my mom, rofl. i feel so touched now :D hahaha! cousies stayed over, watched 'The Ring 2' (4 78455 73636237 843 8463 93 9282433 48(: ) it was funnn! such an awesome movie. samara looked so retarded climbing up the well in fast motion, hahaha! it was hilarious! ROFL!

today! woke up realising i feel asleep watching tv, rofl! what..?! tired(: omg, where's ninja fred?! :0 !! *searches everywhere* .. :D !! there you areeeee((: kayys! so, no breakfast.. no lunch.. i'm hoping there's dinner or i think i'm gonna die. and then i comes to what i'm doing now :D omg, the movie 'coming soon' is damn cool! hahaha! it's like a retarded jump out at you scary, rofl. and weirdly, the girl's damn pretty, and she's thai! :0 !! i never thought i'd ever say such a thing, rofl!

'coming soon' trailerrr!

and now to watch, 'babysitter wanted' ! :D

and oh man, i want to watch 'the uninvited' ): but it's always in terrible quality D: so saddd): EMILY BROWNING :D hahaha! kayys, i think i'm done for now, *nods* this day's got to end faster, sighs.

i promise i've become unreadable.
i'm not scared.

2009-04-02T17:40:00.005+08:00

Myth.

first, yesterday! i thought it was gonna suck, heh. but it was awesome! during english, we had some 'voting for student union thing,' and honestly, i really didn't think anyone would pick me /: but when everyone did i'm really so glad. i've always thought it was a very improper voting thing and no one actually wanted it, but i guess i finally realise it's not cos i'm supposed to get the respect cos i'm in-charge, but because you guys actually do trust me to to lead. I LOVE YOU 3S2b(: then there was thepublic speaking course. it was damn damn fun! hahahha! i was dreading it the whole day, but it was awesomeee(: gosh, can't wait for the next one, heh.

todayyy! normal day i guess, nothing fun. had ss test D: wasn't so bad actually. everything that i studied came out, so heck. heh(: and then met my aunt and mom at woodlands. gosh, my aunt's hilarious! rofl. i think i've been with her so long that it's made me so, so much closer to her. one more day till the end of this week! :D

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2009-03-30T19:33:00.002+08:00

Honor Society

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See U In The Dark

You were always the girl
Who would give me girl advice whenever I needed it
My best friend in the world
My friends thought you were fine but I was always denyin' it

Then one summer day
I saw you sitting by your swimming pool
And I was thinking damn you really changed
You're not the little girl I used to know
You opened up my eyes

I see you walk across my room in
Nothing but the moonlight
Now I love to see you in the dark
See you in the dark
My window, frames you like a Monet
Don't come back to bed yet
Cuz I love to see you in the dark
See you in the dark

I'll never see you the same
The veil has been lifted, now I see you're gifted
My whole perspective has changed
Don't think I can go back cause I will always desire it
Don't take another step
Near me just in case we have regrets
If tomorrow we go back to being friends
I'll think about the way you looked tonight
You opened up my eyes

I see you walk across my room in
Nothing but the moonlight
Now I love to see you in the dark
See you in the dark
My window, frames you like a Monet
Don't come back to bed yet
Cuz I love to see you in the dark
See you in the dark

Maybe if you were someone else
It wouldn't have to feel like this
I'm wondering how you feel about me now
Or was it just a friendly kiss
Cause I'm seeing you for the first time

I see you walk across my room in
Nothing but the moonlight
Now I love to see you in the dark
See you in the dark

I see you walk across my room in
Nothing but the moonlight
Now I love to see you in the dark
See you in the dark
My window, frames you like a Monet
Don't come back to bed yet
Cuz I love to see you in the dark
See you in the dark
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yeah yeah ! monessha rocks! alot ! where you can see me always in the bright bright sun :D

?! i didn't write thattttt! i left for a sec and that's what happens, rofl! and i'll post some other day, lazyyyy... but i'll leave announcing the fact that, i love this week(:

Join the club.

2009-03-25T16:58:00.001+08:00

i think i've lost my voice.

2009-03-19T18:50:00.002+08:00

Red and Redder.

kayys! i need to back track alot.

sunday!
no idea what happened this day. like really.. oh gosh, black out! D: *checks phone..* oh! i remember! i went for miro's raceeeee! but it rained like crazy, and i got drenched. and my hair sucks when it's wet, sighs D: but it was funny, like some crazy thunderstorm. damn cool! and miro opened up an umbrella, but we still got wet. hahaha! came from the back too, very awkward. *shrugs* FUN :D

monday!
i don't remember again.. rofl! kayys! had to "pick up" something from home first, heh :D and went out and travelled to places which were very new to me *shrugs* what?! i'm a very homey kid((: and it was fun :D i hope you like the bottle, rofl! you're all crazy over it, hahaha! and tsktsk, going against your principles now are we? (: it's just the woodlands way *nods*

tuesday!
i don't remember.. hmm.. i guess something happened. ran in the morning, almost died. stoned in the afternoon, went to the library, then later guitar. guitar's damn fun! i think i'm being pushed to music's limits D: gosh, i need to work harder to become a lot better.

wednesday!
FLAG DAY! :D honestly, i thought it was going to be a horrible day, but with pearlyn, it was damn damn fun! hahahaha! we met so many cool people!! first the lady who asked us our tin number and gave us money! and took alot of stickers, rofl! so cute! and then we went to suntec and met this damn cool guy who can play the piano super well, and he thought pearlyn loadsa stuff! and he told me how i could use guitar to figure out the chords :D from there, went out for lunch, :DD after that had violin *plonk* but he's really damn nice to me. i feel bad for not liking him, hahaha! he's quite bonkers, rofl.

today!
heh, i always get my way don't i(; well, least for a certain extend i dod, rofl. and i'm happy for you miro, hahahaha!

done! ((:
byebyebye!

2009-03-14T17:33:00.003+08:00

Jurassic

first, CREZMUN WAS DAMN FUN! HAHAHAHAHA! who'd have known politics was so retarded. my dad wants me to be politician. i told him i don't want to die walking down the road, rofl. (shoot! the thing on tv's so cute! uhhh.. dyingg.. rofl!) though it was super messy and stuff, it was damn cool! like how you can't even talk to the person directly and stuff. permission for everything, torturing lynn.. hahaha! I LOVE YOU ZEHRA AND PEARLYN :D it wouldn't have been that fun without both of you, rofl! we took so long to even write one thing down, hahaha!

i met Damien on the train.. he was hilarious. he doesn't know much about the happenings in Singapore and was so thrilled to hear from me all the stuff that actually happens here. and he told me loads of stuff about France, damn cool! oh, french homework. i like the paper! it's damn kiddy! hahaha! see seee!!

heheh.. rofl. Damien's really damn nice(: i've been freaking out every wednesday when that string playing dude comes *plonk* but weirdly, he really thinks of me super highly and is damn damn nice to me. so weirdd.. and i dread the day he has to come. i feel evil. hmm.. i'm guessing i should just practise, sighss..

and oh, before i forget,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEARLYN AND ROSHINI! :D

hahaha! done for now,

byebyebye!

2009-03-11T20:22:00.002+08:00

it's a bit of for and ever.

i've screwed up common tests): gotten back six, passed three failed three. sighs. gosh, i feel so lousy)): three more results, all humanities. i'm really crossing my fingers and hoping i don't fail, but i didn't finish any of it properly, so i guess that's out /: need to buck up! will start studying every night with the start of march holidays. i really need to stretch my 'stay awake' period, it's super early, and i'm a night studier. i swear something's calling me to go to bed *plonk*

weirdly, i'm super happy((: 2 more days till march holidays :D rofl. damn flag day, i really don't want to do ittttttt!! least it's for a good cause(: need to work on CrezMUN! D: i'm so dead *pl0nk* need to rush!!

byebyeee!

:D

2009-03-10T23:22:00.001+08:00

restart! i can't remember a thing that happened! D: soooo.. when something finally does happen, i'll write it on my hand and post it up here :D and till then, don't nag at me. LAZYYYYY :D

2009-03-08T17:36:00.002+08:00

i was crazyyyy! i'm not changing to LJ D: !! so, staying(: and now, i'm lazy. and i've got homework): sighs, will blog soon. don't torture meeeeee D:

2009-02-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

NO TIMEEEE D: need to study *plonk* will start blogging again after CTs(:

5. ((:

2009-02-15T09:15:00.002+08:00

Valentine

-
Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "i love you"
Birds singin' in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me

Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me

Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longin' to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
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FRIDAYYYY!
crezawards was damn damn fun! rehearsals were super rush, and the food was awful, as usual, rofl! and i never knew the G block's first floor showers actually had warm water *shrugs* but it was superrrr fun! honestly, i was damn D: at first, but who'd have known when people cheer for you you'd actually have a boost to do better and not make mistakes. after performance, blah blah blah, went to meet up with everyone else. MING CAMEEEE :D gahhhh.. :D :D :D :D :D hahahaha! and Taufiq Batisah((: he shook my handdd.. rofl!

ootuoyeesotdetnawi /: till i realised i didn't send the text, heh. oops):

SATURDAYYYY!
had to go for lessons in the morning and gosh, it was damn damn fun! i think i'm the youngest there, rofl! but it's so cool! DAMIEN((: i think he's the coolest teacher alive, hahahaha! our class is like, the class in 'Mind Your Language' hahahahaha! so cool! so cool! went for Miro's race afterwards, funfun(: then had to go for valentine's day dinner, rofl! my grandma was insisting i be her valentine so that she could get the stuff she wants, rofl! oh well(:

and oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSSA! :D

TODAYYYY!
i've got to study for tomorrow's chem test *plonk* ohmann): this is gonna suck.

since i've been an anti-embarrassment person, i only say stuff which i'm gonna do. cos once i say it, i've got to keep my word. time to publicise.

i, Niveetha Nair, promise to be in total control of myself whenever i have it (i shall just leave it was 'it' for now, rofl) with me. as long as it's with me, no dreaming, no temptations, no desires, nothing. but once it's off, i don't care anymore :D hahahahha! soooo, it shall be with me, always(:

i wish i wrote more letters to you, because from now on, it'd be signed off as

forever yours with my mask,
secret.

2009-02-12T11:14:00.003+08:00

End War.

i haven't blogged since i came back D: and now i'm too lazy, rofl! just to sum it all up, KL was AWESOME! everytime i go overseas and leave everything behind, it's damn fun :D I BOUGHT STUFF! WHOO! I BOUGHT STUFF! :D heheh.. andddddddddddddddddd! the greatest thing of all, A FLASH SHIRT! HAHAHAHAHA! GAH! HAPPYY! school's been fun(: chaotic, rofl! but fun :D

anddd, i've got nothing else D: oh well :D need to go back to school for rehearsals *plonk* ohoh! i love meds! hahahaha! cos this time, it's actually working(((: and i have a feeling something weird's going on *shrugs* shall wait and seeeee.

i never knew this side of you. ihy.

2009-02-06T21:40:00.002+08:00

I miss your taste.

school's been ridiculously fun, rofl! i've no idea why, but though the stress's getting to me, weird ideas of an unachievable success is totally driving me forward. i just, need to have abit of space. i've realised i'm on the verge of blowing up alot /: and i'm so so sorry if i do. i know it's no excuse, but as friends we understand each other right? and though i've got my secret keepers about everything around me, i've never exactly told how i've ever felt about anything, and that's only cos it's embarrassing, and i dispise talking about myself to no matter who it is. but yup, school's been awesomeeeeeee(((:

I HATE E MATH! COME ON! SHE DOESN'T GET WE LOOK DAMN Oo AND SHE STILL CONTINUES TEACHING! *plonk* i'vc never been so retardedly blur in a class. E math test is gonna suck terribly. need to get notes for physics, chem and history. oh gosh! i love LOVEEEE HISTORY! gahhh... it's like, the most funnest subject in the whole entire world! I LOVE YOU FRANCEEEE! world cup next year!! :D

i realised i've been having weird dreams, heh /: monessha caught me biting my bolster. i swear i thought it was food *sulk* but it's like, usually if you dream of something crazy, you'd wake up and think about it for a minute wheather if it was real. but weirdly, i don't even do that anymore /: cos the dream's totally crazy, or at least impossible): like driving at this age, rofl! but hey! dreams are meant to be like that.

i guess i've finally controlled myself, again. there's always this period of time when even the luckiest person go into chaos. it's like, everything is wrong D: but it'd change, if you have hope that is(: don't know why, i just think it's better for your soul (hahahaha!) if one, you don't swear. and two, you always look at the brighter side of everything. cos honestly, there always really is one. i don't care if you can't find it, look again. i bet there is! ((:

absence makes the heart grow fonder. yes? yes(: i've got a whole lifetime to wait for everything i want/need. i had to wait for practically everything i'm doing now, and a little bit more isn't going to hurt me. so yuppp, i guess that's it.

oh! won't be back till monday, so don't miss me in school d: rofl! and just before i leaveeeee,

(7/2) HAPPY BIRTHDAY POOJA! :D i know he haven't talked that much in some time, but i guess there's always time to catch up on everything(: have a great sixteenth! :D

(8/2) HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAYA!!! :D hahahaha! i seriously wanted to text you on the day itself cos i thought it was hilarious to wish each other, rofl! but since i can't, so i'll do it now, HAHAHAHA! ALWAYS BE HAPPY SMALL KID! and you seriously have to start wearing a smaller shirt. oo... that should be a good birthday present, hahaha! kidding(: have fun on ~~your~~ OUR special dayyy :D

kayys, time to go to bed. gotta wake up early tomorrow *plonk*

You should give me a chance.

2009-02-02T21:21:00.004+08:00

Perfect Square.

i have come to proclaim my undying love for Geraldine Lim WanYu. (btw, i'm not Geraldine and i'm not Niveetha pretending to be Geraldine either *nods* well this should be interesting to watch, rofl!) Geraldine Lim WanYu, I LOVE YOU KAYYS :D and i know you love me too! hahahaha! and you're much much MUCH more special that your hot hot ec okayy! rofl! LOVESSS-

kayys, i've no idea why, but i'm tempted to leave this here and see who breaks it.

Decipher My Cipher! (and the only clue is, everything in my post is always important. every. single. word.)

06-05-18-08-25-15-18-19-15-13-18-25-23-21-01-05-15-09-20-19-22-21-20-13-
11,

secret.

2009-02-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

Mr Right

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HILARY LEONG! :D

i've known you for 2 years and one month and it's been awesome! (: thank youuuu, for totally torturing me everyday (rofl! kidding) but it's always been fun anyways((: and sorry, no picture. but if out of nowhere i had one, you'd kill me anyways, hahaha! so, happy 15th! (((:

and, everybody! START LISTENING TO THE WHITE TIE AFFAIR! they're like, the awesomest band ever! hahahaha! crezawards results tomorrow /: we both doubt we'd get in. but hey! it was fun practising(:

i'm being unbearably patient. sighs):

2009-01-31T22:39:00.002+08:00

A Fever You Can't Sweat Out.

i hate being sick): who'd have thought it'd hurt so much to be crazy hot, rofl!

sighs):

2009-01-26T18:16:00.007+08:00

Feelin' Pink.

kayys, i'm gonna start with a total back track :D

FRIDAYYYYY!

still had to study during CNY celebrations day *plonk* but hey, i love history! i swear it's one of the few subjects i look forward too. kayys, i love all the subjects this year! :D but i love history more *nods* CNY celebrations sucked. it was so boring! D: i swear i'd have killed myself if it wasn't for buan hua and hilary, rofl! then stuff, stuff.. more stuff.. went out with hilary leong and zehra to singapore plaza, according to zehra that is, rofl! went to plaza singapure and had lunchhhh :D I'M SORRY I'M SUCH A MESSY EATER KAYYS! but i think it's fun :D hahahahaha! and i'm never going out with both of you, at least when you're together, again! do you have any idea how much i freaked out over my damn grossly painted (thanks to zehra D:< ) nails, hahahaha! then went home, shileng came for lessons. honestly, i think i'm loving physics more thanks to him. cos the more i understand and not feel completely stoopid, the more i like the subject(: i just guess, i'm missing my original plan of how to study /: but heck, i shall dump loadsa sweets with my mom or something and make her give them to me once i'm done with work, rofl! what..?! I LOVE SWEETS (((:

SATURDAYYYYY!

went out for breakfast with aunt and cousiess((: so in the end we decided to go out to buy stuff, hahahaha! I BOUGHT STUFFFFF :D i'm sorry im so girly! but i bet stuff makes everyone happy kayys! so we shopped around for hours, funfun! then after that we decided to go play badminton, randomly :D so all of us went home, (cousies stay a walking distance away from my place so it's easy for them to come over anytime(: ) got everything and went to the court. it was damn damn fun! at first we tried to win each other but then later we changed to just looking awesome. so everytime a bus came, we'd hit the shuttle to the other person in this "near-far" spot and they'd jump to whack it back, and we'd imagine how everyone in the bus would be like.

people in bus: whoaa.. those dudes are COOL!

rofl! then we played soccer :D and catching! block catching(: and it was super fun! gosh, i'd miss those times with them when we're older, but they don't seem to be growing up. boyss.. hahahaha! so, CHEERS TO HAVING FUN FOREVER, TO THE AWESOMEST COUSINS!

SUNDAYYYYY!

went to aunt's place in the morning with cousies for swimming :D i bet if we ever had to play water polo we'd totally win, hahahaha! we threw the ball from pool to pool and caught most of it :D showered at her place, stoned about for a bit, then KARAOKE :D rofl! i thought it'd be awful, but actually it was super super fun! hahaha! had dinner, pot luck and barbequeee(: cousie lost his slipper in the tree, rofl! he had to go home with only one slipper. ohoh! damn funny!

kayys, we were about to leave already. so we went up to our aunt's house and got our stuff and entered the lift. both the lifts we facing each other. so like, if both we open we'd see each other. so we held the lift open while waiting for my aunt, then the other lift opened. so this grandma of mine saw so many people standing in one place and thought that was my aunt's house and wanted to walk in, HAHAHAHAHA! then we pointed her way to the house, rofl! she's damn cute!
went back at like, 10? and watched abit of 'the strangers' and totally freaked myself out till i had to sleep with a fever *plonk* but it was funny :D hahahha! btw, the movie's slow moving but awesome(:

TODAYYYYY!

i thought today'd be boring, but i went out with my mom, SHOPPINGGG :D and again, I BOUGHT STUFF! I BOUGHT STUFF! :D my mom's crazy funny! hahahaha!

me: *gets annoyed with this dude blasting music* is that even allowed?!
mom: i guess so. it's just irritating. you don't see a 'please don't be irritating' sign now do you?

mom: *points behind me* only this station (little india) has that sign.
me: which is?
mom: no loitering.

mom: the buses from little india are super good.
me: why?
mom: cos they're filled with perfume.

HAHAHAHAHAHA! i love going out with her, she's damn funny! i guess everything's perfecty perfect! only one thing's out of place now; i'm. still. waiting.

ohoh! very very saddd): i won't be in the country during my birthday. so from the 7th to the 9th (won't be going to school either /: ) i won't be contactable at all *plonk* gahh.. sighs): but heck, even if i was here, nothing's gonna happen anyway. so might as well enjoy myself overseas with the awesome doggy my uncle has(:

lessons soon, got to go study too.

Adios!

yisituoriuhmco; no. no i don't.

2009-01-20T21:25:00.002+08:00

how many times can one kid fall in love? ;with the same person /:

i've forgotten everything. my heart beats for no one.

2009-01-18T16:12:00.002+08:00

Royal Flush.

From now on, it's all about me.

Take it home by The White Tie Affair

Come on baby take it home
People are starting to stare
And they're turning on all of the lights
We've been putting on a show all night
Boys will be boys

Take it home, take it home
Cuz I can't take anymore
It's your touch, it's your taste
It's your dress on the floor
Take it home, take it home
Cuz I've been waiting all night for you
And this is what I'm gonna do
Ice, ice melt your heart
Baby girl let down your guard
Rush, rush for that touch
Just one taste can't get enough
Ice, ice melt your heart
Baby girl let down your guard
Rush, rush for that touch
Just one taste can't get enough

Take it, take it home
Take it

Baby put your key in the door
Cuz this party's getting way too loud
And the neighbors can't take anymore
It's all voyeur, let's give'em an encore
Boys will be boys

Take it home, take it home
Cuz I can't take anymore
It's your touch, it's your taste
It's your dress on the floor
Take it home, take it home
Cuz I've been waiting all night for you
And this is what I'm gonna do
Ice, ice melt your heart
Baby girl let down your guard
Rush, rush for that touch
Just one taste can't get enough
Ice, ice melt your heart
Baby girl let down your guard
Rush, rush for that touch
Just one taste can't get enough

Get a room
They say
What's it to
Them anyway
Over there
Anywhere
Doesn't matter
Cuz you're here

Ice, ice melt your heart
Baby girl let down your guard
Rush, rush for that touch
Just one taste can't get enough
Ice, ice melt your heart
Baby girl let down your guard
Rush, rush for that touch
Just one taste can't get enough

Take it home, take it home
Cuz I can't take anymore
It's your touch, it's your taste
It's your dress on the floor
Take it home, take it home
Cuz I've been waiting all night for you
And this is what I'm gonna do
Ice, ice melt your heart
Baby girl let down your guard
Rush, rush for that touch
Just one taste can't get enough
Ice, ice melt your heart
Baby girl let down your guard
Rush, rush for that touch
Just one taste can't get enough

Just one taste can't get enough...
Just one taste can't get enough...
Just one taste can't get enough...

2009-01-16T22:32:00.003+08:00

Tune.

sighs, i'm so so sorry):

1. i've got nothing to say anymore.
2. i still think i'm awfully boring.
3. i'm on mental breakdown mode every second now.
4. i think i'm wasting your time.
5. i'm so afraid i'll miss you.
6. i keep saying i don't but i do):
7. somehow i'll talk some crap up and never see you and you'd have to pass Lex to someone else before it comes to me. so never believe me.
8. i'm a terribly impatient kid with hope /:
9. i'm taking up everything i can to make a a better person for an 'imaginary' kid.
10. i'm killing my body trying to cope with everything.
11. my voice sucks horribly so i don't want to voice out a word either.
12. the only time i'm completely happy without a reason is not imaginable anymore.
13. accomplishment is my only source of happiness, other than friends and S2b((:
14. my music's gone from the jazzy blues to the bitter blues.
15. in my mind, i've lost everything i owned though i'm gaining more.
16. i'm happy for you, happy that you're fine(:
17. i can't read the super long letter(s) till now cos they were too happy for me to read /:
18. i've been staring at random pages in books for ages, for weird reasons.
19. school's practically the only thing that's making me happy. i like school((:
20. i wish we kept our deal and studied together cos after totally making myself go bonkers during the weekdays, my weekends are crazy free. but that's not possible anymore. and i wouldn't let it happen anyways /:
21. i realised i've been blogging everday and it's not just for show. i guess i'd hope you read it, and wouldn't feel like you're in a loss in my life, like i am in yours /: but it doesn't matter anyways, it shouldn't.
22. i've been practising everything i know alot for a self performance.
23. i really shouldn't be doing this)):
24. the golden rule is, i can be happy later.
25. the front pages of 'digital fortress' is making me crazy.
26. weirdly, i think i've given up on tv and everything i used to think that kept me 'up to date'. and now i realisesd everything was just trash.
27. what pushes me is hope.
28. a push is what i need to do anything.
29. honestly, i'm not going to give up /:

there we have it! and i don't really want to talk about this, ever.

29.

2009-01-16T19:23:00.001+08:00

I LOVE 3S2b! :D

2009-01-15T20:40:00.003+08:00

zone out.

omg, i really think everyone who'd walk in into our class even for a little bit they'd think we're the most awesomest class ever, rofl! it's hilarious, hahahaha! gah, i've never had to much fun in a class before. i guess it's cos everyone's so open and no one's against everyone. it's just about being together and having fun(: and that's how it's supposed to be.

I BOUGHT IT! I BOUGHT IT! HAHAHAHAHA! omg, i looked like a retard holding it with my guitar, but i finally got it, rofl. can't wait! (((: and the lessons been pushed forward by a month and it starts on valentine's day morning /: but that actually makes it more interesting, rofl! heheh..

and oh, i joined crezmun (sp?) for fun, rofl! i guess i thought since i'm already doing loadsa weird stuff this year, might as well do more, hahahaha! i doubt i'd get in, but heck, it's for the fun of it anyways(: and anyway, can waste time :D hahaha!

kayys, i'm done!
byebyeeeeee.

it's a bit of loss and confusion /:

2009-01-14T20:51:00.002+08:00

Director.

i don't think i'm supposed to be happy now /: i've no idea why, but i've never been so happy :D hahahaha! HYPERRRRR. school's damn fun. every morning it's damn hard to get up, but once i get to school it's like, whoa! FUN! FUN! i think it's just 3S2b which's making everything awesome! we already feel the stress /: and i really thought nothing could beat sec 2, but i guess everything changes over a bit of time(:

i think everyone's gotta be like yes-man :D and say yes to everything. and honestly, when you actually do whatever you say yes to, it's awesome(: it's like, taking every chance you get. and that's exactly what everyone should do.

i think i'm right to squish every minute i have free with something new to learn, cos it's exciting :D hahahaha! i've got to cross my fingers, and hope everything'd be just as awesome as i hoped it would be.

A lost chance.

2009-01-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

Atlas.

trust me, i know i'm right about this /: it was, meant to be.

2009-01-11T21:15:00.000+08:00

The clockwork of your heart.

sighs)):

Biology.

2009-01-11T20:43:00.005+08:00

Your knight in shining armour.

i know it's super late and everyone knows already, but i need to post it. G1 WON :D like i've been screaming all day long, I LOVE YOU PEOPLE! ROFL! that night's like, treasured by everyone. i guess you'd feel the bond when you've won that night(: and i had crazy loads of fun that day. ohman, geraldine): i miss you so much): why do you have to go D: ! but nevermind, we shall get a giant bear and paste your unglam picture on it, and leave it on the corridor, cos you've got no class, hahahaha! least you'd be in school, *shrugs* :D i guess campfire night went a bit bonkers /: but in the end, everyone celebrated((: daddy came to pick me up, and that's that night. and oh, if any choir people read this, YOUR PERFORMANCE WAS AWESOME! the best from all the performances :D rofl!

then cca day. the first thing someone told me was, "i look like a toot tucking in my shirt" ?! HAHAHAHAHA! funny way to start a day. and *someone helped me give out a kazillion badges, couldn't have done it without her. THANK YOUUU :D (and btw, i know you'd read this. so tag or i'll kill you! i love you too :D rofl.) went home with hilary and it was damn fun! i hate pastamania soup! every single one of them sucks! and we played soccer and metal slug on ps2, rofl! i know i'm awesome Hilary Leong :D and that retard so awesome at piano *plonk* i'll teach you the funny song i made up, some day when you grow nails, hahaha! and then, that's that.

todayyyy. congrats Miro and Roshini! i think you guys got into finals? yes? yes :D went to sign up for funny lessons and stuff, and had to get plastic cover for tamil books, this is so retarded, rofl. what..?! i like my books naked :D heheh.. there's this damn nice song. i'll try to learn it, and play it some day, to well, anyone who wants to hear it(: but it's damn sad /: but heck, it's a nice very extremely sad song, rofl.

i feel the upper sec stress already /: i guess you're right Miro. i have been keeping myself so occupied that i don't realise that all i'm happy about is what i've accomplished doing. and i used to be happy for no reason, and now that's impossible anymore. i've got to work harder, and become a better person and be worth so much more than just any mere kid. i'll be so much more.

i've practically planned my whole life already. cept with the fact that there might be changes here and there. but what i know is, 1. i want to migrate. 2. i'll get a doggy and name him Champion (((((: 3. i'd get a room-mate, rofl. what..?! i'd get bored! rofl. don't want to marry. soooo.. room-mate :D and anyways, i think that way, everyday would be fun. it's just, go to work every morning, come back and laugh like crazy with room-mate, and then sleep :D no responsibilities and evil kiddies and thinking about others *nods* easy(:

soo.. by the end of sec 3, i want to become a kid filled with love and brains, hahaha! it's not my fault i'm heartless and a retard, rofl. one got stolen and the other i never had, (A) omgg.. monessha's looking at me and saying something which i don't understand. gahh.. sounds like monkey to me.. *stares at monessha* D:

kayys! back to studying math. test tomorrow. i really hope i'm ready): i still can never study alone *plonk* ohman, i'm so doomed))):

It's forever been, and always will be,
a dark dark world.

2009-01-07T19:30:00.004+08:00

The Villain.

campfire night's near! it's near! it's near! HAHAHAHAHAHA! i shall be going to campfire night. and before that, gotta help 3S2b decorate the class for CNY. year of the ox. that's gonna be interesting. i've got to get back to a 700 word essay D: damn. i realised how cool it is to say you're a lit student, rofl! you sound so pro, when you exclude your results of cos, what..?! :D but lit's damn damn fun! just like everything. i think this happy happy feeling'd last for the whole year, though everyone'd die of stress and look lethargic by mid year /: it's always been like that in Crescent anyway. stressful, but fun!

you. if you ever ever forget your nametag and need it, you can come get it from me kayys! cos i know you'd forget to bring yours some day *nods* like how you used to find me for it. i insist you come find me when you need it :D (HILARY LEONG! I BET I'M RIGHT ABOUT THIS d: )

okayy! back to "Tracks" essay *plonk*

FIRE

2009-01-05T19:43:00.003+08:00

Sonic.

i hate math D: omg, need to rush homeworkk.. gahh.. kayys, i'm super happy this year :D i hoped for a happier happy, but heck. happy enough. and THANK YOU! to whoever who was/is all excited for me after being, yea, thingum. and i promise if any one of you calls me that ever again, i'll bite you *sulk* and i've done it before >:D rofl!

school open house is on saturday, and campfire night's on friday. so whoever wants to come, should come(; and now, back to rushing homework stuff.

it's yin and yang.
if you could forget,
i never will.

2009-01-04T20:35:00.001+08:00

The Invisible.
i want you back.
i've posted.

With a clickety click here and there, ta-da!

2009-01-03T21:45:00.001+08:00

imy. sighs):

2009-01-03T14:55:00.005+08:00

Scream City.

first day of school was awesome! :D i'm actually looking forward to an awesome year ahead, rofl. who'd have known i'd miss school this much. seems this year's gonna be different(;

and you, i'm crossing my fingers and hoping you read this. i'm really sorry 'bout Leroy. but you'll have to go to school soon, so i don't think you can be grounded if you're not locked up at home right? i think, i guess /: and you better have remembered my number! or i'm kicking your butt out of this planet (A) i love you too(:

it's in black and white.

2008-12-31T21:59:00.006+08:00

2008.

eh, second post today(:

it's the last day of this year): i'll miss this year so so much. i've never had so much fun! no year would ever be like this one. but hopefully, the next would be just as fun(: ( i just don't want stress *shrugs* :D ) i'll miss all you guys. 2G1! NETBALLERS(: and of cos, MASQUE! gah, i'll miss you retards so so much)): but, we'll always talk and be together, far far away(:

me and monessha watched miss universe! :DDDD rofl!

miss venezuela((((: dayana mendoza.

she, is damn damn whoa! rofl! what..?! i've always liked foreign people, hahaha! cept americans, hate all of them, cept some :D

i've actually given up. sighs):

2008-12-31T12:00:00.003+08:00

Ferrari.

kayys, yesterday! :D damn damn fun! i've never laughed so hard, rofl. NURUL :DDD we went to west coast park, then some random reservoir, salvation army and IMM, rofl! gahhh.. so fun! so fun! yesterday was awesome! awesome!

today's gonna be a terribly boring day, sighs): heckheck, i just need the tv, Hero and my ps2, and i'll be totally fine the rest of the day. gah):

vroom vroom.

2008-12-30T22:14:00.003+08:00

Hope.

today, was crazy much fun. and tiring D: will write more about it tomorrow.

i've got a terrible stomachache, which usually means, something's awfully wrong now. sighs):

i've got hope. i've always got hope.

Star.

2008-12-29T20:30:00.002+08:00

Blackjack.

tomorrow, out with masque(((((((: can't wait! gah, my arm hurts like crazy *plonk* cure stoopid hand! cureeee!!

anddddd... video!! FUNNY! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

imy): .

2008-12-27T14:29:00.003+08:00

I'm the king of hearts!

sighs): that didn't go well /: that really didn't go well *plonk* i realised i've needed to hide from everyone of my music teachers after everything i've been through with them *shrugs* damn):

less than a week left till school re-opening *plonk* well that's gonna suck D: but! a new year brings awesome new stuff, so i can't wait! :D

to-do list:
1. homework (never gonna do it D: )
2. not die of boredom
3. prepare for a crazy third year in crescent
4. get ready for extra stuff i'll be taking *plonk* (shall not write it out till maybe half a year. cos i might jinx it /: )

Adios!

2008-12-24T18:29:00.003+08:00

The thing which speaks a million words.

Pictures! (psstt... click me! :D)

i like silverrrr.. *plonk* so so much D: gahhh..

Ace.

2008-12-23T17:06:00.004+08:00

Police.

kayys! bintan trip(:

Day 1:

woke up super duper crazy early and made our way to changi village for breakfast. waited for the rest at the ferry terminal. THE FERRY RIDE SUCKED): ! i threw up 7 times)): *plonk* there goes the carrot cake, rofl! felt awful all the way till i bought stuff :D what.. everyone's happier with new stuff, heheh.. (A) after that, to the resort. THAT PLACE HAS AN AWESOME VIEW! everyone keeps using the back door cos it's got the view, rofl! front door one's ugly, *shrugs* did loads of swimming, and we played beach soccer till dark, it was awesome(: showered, blah blah.. monessha, is an awesome room mate :D ! rofl! we got the cleanest room throughout the whole trip, hahahaha! dinner was on some floaty thingy, heheh.. you can see the stars at bintan! :D went to play some damn cool game with terrible drinks, rofl! and then, bed(:

N: *looks awful*
T: stomache?
N: No.
T: headache?
N: No.
N: *thinks* heartache.

Day 2:

we got a wake up call, and i heard 6. 50 when it was 6.15 and rushed *slaps forehead* morning stuff.. breakfastt.. and stuff(; gah, that made me weirdly happy, heheh((: we did loads and loads of stuff and had crazy lengths of fun! :D !! took a speedboat to white sand beach, the name says everything, rofl! just a tip, never open your mouth on a speedboat, and especially when you're in the middle of the sea, uhhh D: the beacj was super clean and the water was blue. like, blue blue :D rode this thingy called flying fish, it was horribly fun *heart attack* long story, so heck. just that i was dan close to dying, ahh): ! funfun! rofl! took another boat back, swam.. stuff(; changed and talked for super long under the sky! it was like, the perfect night. dinner, then bed(:

Day 3:

nothing much today. normal stuff and headed back home(: i was actually home sick. i never thought i'd ever want to come back home so much, rofl!

the whole trip was awesome. i had so so so much fun! (: pictures soon *nods*

i've decided to start over and better myself. it's like 2 weeks till school reopens, but it's better late than never, yes? no more dilly dallying. i've kinda have a plan of what to do, now i've just gotta wait till christmas's over, rofl! and i'm gonna become a teeny bit awesomer.

2008-12-18T13:11:00.005+08:00

you lied.

you said, forever and ever.

of cos i'm

in love

with you

darling

2008-12-13T20:31:00.002+08:00

Spy who loves me.

(;<

2008-12-10T21:12:00.002+08:00

Flamenco.

i finished need for speed! :D well, till number 7 and now i'm beat cos my thumb's pooped. poor right hand): it's dead. from well, loads of stuff i did /: and i realise that everytime i pick up my guitar i play the same songg.. and can make own nonsensical words that rhyme with it too :D ahh.. genius i must say, rofl! (psstt.. it's more for annoying Monessha :D and monessha, if you do read this, i'm kidding *nods*) sick, very sick, gonna die soon. uhh..

sighs): we need to talk. but i'm not going to tell you anything.

i'm done! :D

The Spanish People.

2008-12-07T21:10:00.002+08:00

Not so perfect.

few days back, dunno when:

i was bonding with mommy :D oh gosh, the stories she tell are seriously damn retarded! of all her cousies. from those that hide in trees cos they don't want to go to school to retards who stick their head between grills (they had to saw their head out, hahahaha!). and she told me loadsa true ghost stories, where people were washing clothes D: i swear it's damn freaky, it's the way she said it! we were all alone in the house. at night. in a dark dark room. with the toilet door open (i still think there's something in there, even after so many years *shrugs*). and mommy acting all possessed. :0 !! anyone would freak out! and my grandpa stole some dude's name, and he used to bring my grandma to school so in the end they married *slaps forehead* and he almost killed a camel, and almost got killed by pirates (that one's damn cool!) and he survived a tumbling (??) truck accident. everyone died and he came out without a scratch. heheh.. funny guy :D

yesterday:

got back guitar results. 2 marks away from distinction *plonk* well, least i passed :D and i saw giant slurpees walking around! :D :D

and i felt totally empty. even after getting my results i'm supposed to be happy, cos well, it wasn't as bad as it could be. i was hoping only for a pass anyways. mommy bought loads of food(: cos she was all happy for me, cos i signed up and did everything for the exam by myself. usually she helps and practices with me. i guess they don't think guitar is something as important as piano /: but whatever it is, i wasn't a mood of celebration at all. i felt totally, empty.

today:

sighs /: cleaned out my whole room with mommy. everything's in the trash :D

mom: grandpa's gonna get mad

me: he's actually having fun walking there with me

mom: yea, i know, he likes it

me: like what?

mom: he likes to throw away everything

ROFL! he's damn funny! and i went all dusty for tuition and kept sneezing. and then the rest of the dayy.. guitar.. guitar.. more guitar.. learned like 4 songs *plonk* sighs, today just ain't a very awesome day, cept for the times i was with mommy and grandpa :D

being hopeful isn't a good thing. not when you're as hopeful as i am. you get disappointed easily. when you stare at your phone all day long waiting for a never coming thing, it sucks. alot. even though i know there's gonna be nothing, i don't really care. i'd still wait. and the best part is, when something does come, even that one second smile can give you a teeny bit of energy to last you the rest of the day, even after seeing it's not from who you wanted it to be from. *whacks fact into head* (fact: i was bored. i was bored. i was bored.) i missed you /:

well i'm off! to the merry wonderlands of a hand, a soft cupboard, and breaking promises.

priceless.

2008-12-05T20:46:00.004+08:00

words.

honestly, i thought i was just gonna blog " :D ", but i guess i change my mind easily, tsk.

sighs /:

remember remember, the fifth on november,

the gunpowder treason and plot.

i can think of no reason, why the gunpowder treason,

should ever be forgot.

2008-12-04T14:23:00.002+08:00

what it, seems to be

kayys, i've got nothing *plonk* i just can't let the bloggie die :D sooo.. all i've got to say is,

*stress.stress.panics.die. D: *

"that's another story deery"

2008-11-28T17:59:00.002+08:00

Since, I haven't posted in ages, I shall now post.

Secret #240: I have a purple barney toy that I can't sleep without. SSSHHH.. :$

(Byebye!)

*shrugs* (:

2008-11-23T20:07:00.003+08:00

play the black keys,

i realised i can't say sorry, like, proper sorries. when i do something terrible. not those bonkers ones where i kick someone and they coming chasing after me wearing clown shoes, rofl!

2 situations i've no idea how to get out of. or i just can't say it.

if A's all excited about something, and B wanted it too. but something happens and it's not exactly B's fault, but he/she feels bad for being part of it.

A comes all excited asking something from B, and then B couldn't do it and wants to help, but just a bit later. like, the excited face just wiped away. though A'd say it's okay, B'd still feel bad, no matter how truethfully A meant it.

oh gosh, the horror of being A or B, *plonk*

i've been watching loadsa movies :D :D and guitar exam's 3 days away *plonk* uhh.. SCARED! D: and flash comic books are awesome! i even missed 'dark oracle' for it, and i'd never do that for anything, rofl! damn.. i really need that episodes up online..

kayys, i've got nothing more. byebyeee! (:

you'd end on a white.

2008-11-18T18:44:00.003+08:00

if you don't say it right,

there's always a possibility.

1. FLASH STUFF EXISTS! in weird places.. rofl! but they do exist! :D !!

2. i ate my favourite ice cream! which's like, 60 cents, hahaha!

3. i really like reading now. and i'm damn sad i didn't go to the library.. sorry grandpa): !

4. i can't sleep properly anymore.

5. my exams are in less than ten days, and the songs' speed are racing against my heartbeat, and that's crazy):

and i just realised the more i type the sadder it gets, heh /: i shall give up here, and post up some retard video me and my sis took :D

sighs): my hand hurts):

(i'm sorry! i keep breaking your promises): i'll really really make it up to you)

knight to knight,

come forth,

and fight for the damsel in distress.

2008-11-13T18:43:00.002+08:00

desires. temptations. vexation.

HELLO 3S2 '09! :D omg, i cannot be happier than this, rofl. i got exactly what i wanted. pure physics, chem. pure lit and elect history :D and i realised like practically everyone doesn't want to take physics and history, so sad D: but least there's few(: JAYAAAA!! i refuse to study with you! and remember that kayys(: hahahaha! i'm sorry! but you're damn creepy when you're studying 24/7 :0 !! sooo.... i can't wait for 2009! (:

and omg, so many movies watched, and everything rocked! and, i never knew giraffe's were so smooth with hippos, hahaha! i like Melman! :D and prom dress shopping is crazy!! and my feet are achingg.. rofl! funfun! (:

and i love my cousies! they saw this toys r us magazine catalogue thingum, and there was a flash action figure!!!! :D !!!!!!!! BUT, it's damn ex): and it comes with 2 other crappo/unknown action figures): so sadddd): least i know he exists! HAPPY! ((:

i want my parents back home): kinda weirdd.. and also happy they're off having fun. but they need to be reminded they have evil kids who are gonna give them a headache once they're back! (: basketball tomorrow! i hope.. :D !

kayys, done for now.

byebyeeee! (:

2008-11-04T18:20:00.004+08:00

whispers, "do you know what you want?"

kayys, movies after movies after movies, rofl. i think by now i'd have watched a kazillion horror movies, heheh(: i refuse to admit i like romance! D: omgg, this is not good): why horror, why! why're you backing out on me now. damn you voice): i shall go rent more retarded looking ones. only those are damn good, rofl.

today! went to the libraryyy :D and played basketball with cousie(: andd.. we came back and watched some crazy spelling show on channel 5 with my aunt. gosh, all of us suck. half the words that popped up in the show isn't even in my dictionary, rofl! shoot! damn damn fun! went to cousie's place, i made a pyramid with cards! :D

his one fell, wind >:) hahahaha! charged psp and stuff there, he lent me his superhero origins comic book :D (psstt.. i shall keep it as long as i can :D)

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :D !!

and now, i want a red pullover, very VERYYY badly): uhhh.. *plonk* i like flash! i like flash! i like flash! omg, *faints* kayys, *wipes drool* shall go read! :D i'm out.

"you."

2008-11-01T21:15:00.004+08:00

whispers, "what're you trying to do?" (:

this whole week's been a crazy movie-ish week. *plonk* i've never watched so many movies in my life, rofl. and stoopid monessha's acting immune.. and she's gonna read this.. hello stoopid head! :D

noob :D

10 more days, and back to school for one last day this year, sighs. i think i'll appeal, if i get into bio): don't likee.. shall study hard for physics and make sure i don't die. and anyway, since, cos of the change of cca, *plonk* i should have more time to study! (:

andd.. guitar exams in.. 25 days D: !! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! and i've started on runescape again, rofl. kayys! i shall end of with a scary video, and it's to bed with me(:

it's another day,

tomorrow's another day.

2008-10-30T13:01:00.005+08:00

Locked up.

me, likes this song alot :D

I shoulda known better not to wait around
Why did I come home? (Cause I hate it here)
I shoulda known better not to wait around
I'm getting rid of my phone (And I made it clear)
I shoulda known better not to wait around

Never did never did I ever love anyone other then you
But secretly I always want to see you cry so I push you until you do

Check it out

I shoulda never came I shoulda never shoulda never came to you
You insisted for me to
Crossed the line and didn't mean to, I take it back,
If I thought It'd make it work, never did, but I meant to
I, I, I give up...

I never did what you said that I did
When I was gone for so long
I never said what you did was either right or wrong
It's wrong
You dreamt of him

If it's just me, adjust me baby find the words that define these feelings
Don't roll your eyes when you look at me, hard to talk when you're staring at the ceiling
Push through, push through baby everything we've been through lately
I'll be there when close your eyes hold you tight say goodnight

I never did what you said that I did
When I was gone for so long
I never said what you did was either right or wrong
It's wrong
You dreamt of him

I, I needed, I, I, I needed someone to talk to
And you, you needed you you needed me to hold you
I, I needed, I, I, I needed someone to talk to
And you, you needed you you needed me to hold you

I never did what you said that I did
When I was gone for so long
I never said what you did was either right or wrong
It's wrong
You dreamt of him

2008-10-23T19:30:00.002+08:00

summer love,

oh gosh)): the year's already ended, everything went by so very very fast.. but we've (2G1 '08) had so much fun this year(: from the crazy little sec one's we were and to the act cool people we are now :D sighs.. i'm gonna miss you 2G1): alot, and alot.

MASQUE): ! i'm gonna miss every single one of you. how we hang about everytime and do so many stuff together!

EMMY): i'll miss throwing stuff and giggling about it with you.. and how you put them in prison for 10 seconds and give it back to me, and it'd end up back there again for a longer sentence, hahaha! sighss, i'll miss you so much):

NURUL): you've been my partner for 2 years now dear): though we actually didn't like each other, but we've grown to be so close now. and all the retarded stuff we did together to annoy everyone around us and how we woke each other up, or just heck cared and slept too in class when teachers are around. ohman. ohman. i'll miss you so very very much): !!

GERALDINE): pigeon): why do you have to go to NJ! why! D: now i can't annoy you every morning while taking the train. and since we're gonna be super free, we can go out together right(: ! all the best in NJ :D

JAYA): you and your mr bean voice, hahaha! i'll miss that, alot): and your sick headedness, rofl! tsk! tsk! go wash your brain woman, hahahaha! andd.. least now you won't ask me about homework anymore, heheh.. or maybe you can, for fun, for old times sake, *nods* love you(:

DARSH): womannn.. i'll miss your blur sotong-ness. maybe one day we can go to KFC and play again? heheh.. this time i'll take pictures d: hahaha! i'll miss you, alot):

ALYSSA): youuuuuu.. i'm hoping i get into the same class as you you retarded woman): you're like the super most hyper and like to do loads of bonding stuff person i know ever. we gotta go out sometime kayys! (:

ADDIE): i like your blue earphones.. rofl! i'll miss you and your craziness, so much. and how you're a super pro drama queen, hahahaha! and all the super weird (to me) songs you listen to, and so much more stuff):

AFIQAH): i like your drawings! hahaha! and thank you for doing the sec 4 thingy for me, rofl! and i seriously think all your emoticons are damn damn funny! (:

NAT): crazy woman): ! you didn't come to school today): i'll miss youu): i had lots of fun all the times i talked to you you retarded little thing, so much fun): and now i'm gonna miss you like crazy, even though you showed me the damn gross puking video, heheh.. (:

DINI): i'll miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu): you never unglam my pics before): why never): ! must come butt in yout head one day kayys): *nods*

i'll miss you masque, so so much): and i really hope we can all still hang out some time? /:

and well, finally you.

i'm gonna be bonkers without you in school anymore): but i guess somehow we'd both get over it /: and it's not like anything's going to change, it's only different school(: we can always hang out and have fun! like we always do(: imy. (L)(K)

i'm done depressing over everything, time to be happy, and hope everything/everyone would still be friends(: forever.

nothing's a happy never after

2008-10-19T09:11:00.001+08:00

cus' tomorrow's another day.

watch me run away.

I know it's not enough to say "I'm wrong"
You know that I will miss you now you're gone
I know it's not your life to see this through
Just know that in my heart, it beats for you
So leave a little note for me behind
I swear I have to know the reasons why
This won't survive

But if you fall back into my life
I'd spend every night
Waking up to the beat I hear inside
Telling me to be your only one
But if you fall back into my life
I promise you I
Would never let another day just pass us by
I could never leave this world undone
I wanna be your only one

And now it's not the same with you away
Just holding on to hope to save my days
I won't survive
So just stay with me tonight

But if you fall back into my life
I'd spend every night
Waking up to the beat I hear inside
Telling me to be your only one
But if you fall back into my life
I promise you I
Would never let another day just pass us by
I could never leave this war unsung
I wanna be your only one

But if you fall back into my life
I'd spend every night
Waking up to the beat I hear inside
Telling me to be your only one
But if you fall back into my life
I promise you I
Would never let another day just pass us by
I could never leave this world undone
I could never leave this war unsung
I could never leave this world undone
I wanna be your only one

2008-10-16T17:58:00.003+08:00

we've had a taste of forever and ever.

gosh! i haven't posted in ages.. heheh.. lazzyyyyy(: not my fault! kayys, woke up later than usual :D thank youuu hilary's daddy! :D and everyone's talking about making subject choices, heh.. PURE LIT AND ELEC HISTORY(: i like history.. funfun! people were playing twister in class! :0 !! it looked damn fun, rofl. so pictures! :D

hahahaha! omg, the glam-ness! ROFL! and gosh, if i ever hear about bulimic people anymore, i'm gonna throw up. so gross. so gross. NAT! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! *sulk*

kayys, funny video! :D

kayys, i'm done for now(:

a never ending november.

2008-10-11T11:01:00.001+08:00

#Post 100

history repeats itself.

sighs.sighs.sighs. )':

2008-10-10T20:03:00.003+08:00

Point of break.

i'm one more post to my hundredth post and i've got nothing to say *plonk* sighs.. lazy lazy lazy(: heh.. sighs.

)':

i dunno.

2008-10-02T17:53:00.003+08:00

Never forever.

i see it in your eyes,

all the pain you're trapping inside.

tell me everything,

i'll listen, i'll call.

i'll be the one to catch you if you fall.

.ootuoyssimi

i stoned out. i guess i got distracted by the way you said it? itsnotmyfault.. and they only thing i could think of was what came out of my mouth, and this time,i dont have to feel your heart to tell you're lying): and i was crying, my heart was crying. i walked so unbelievably slowly, with a little hope in me, that i was doing things for the better. walking in a straight line, every step still burning with temptation, to run back, to check if you were doing okay): but i guessed it wouldn't do you much good. and it would have killed me to let you see me in such a mess. and now, even little stuff lights the frustration in me, i'm losing myself. slowly, painfully, and i'm going to throw it all away.

i've forgotten everything else i wanted to say.

there's so much, i rather put it away.

dream rejection

2008-09-20T20:46:00.004+08:00

gahh.. exams are so near.. so till they're over, no blogging(:
*poof*

2008-09-15T15:19:00.002+08:00

i've never removed a post before.. sighs.. ):

read me if you wanna hear me.

2008-09-14T13:07:00.001+08:00

whispered promises; texts. messages. secrets.

2008-09-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

one day we will feel the moments,
and reach out for the sky.
we will see the midnight moon,
one day we will fly.
one day it'll be just me and you,
i promise i will try.
well one day is just another day,
for now it's goodnight and goodbye.

gahh.. i've never blogged (properly) i ages.. heheh.. kayys, super awesome super duper cool video first! :D

and noww.. nothing! (: sorryyyyy!! i'm damn lazy! hahaha!

whispered promises;

2008-09-09T21:27:00.000+08:00

you make me wanna (Blue)

You know you make me wanna.
You know you make me wanna.

To start it off I know you know me
To come to think of it, it was only last week.
That I had a dream about us, oh.
That’s why I am here, I’m writing this song.
To tell the truth you know I have been hurting all along,
Someway let me know, you want me girl.

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I’m a poor man and you’re the queen.
Oh baby, you’re the only thing that I really need.
Baby that’s why…

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can’t fight.
You’re the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

Well I know that these feelings won’t end no, no.
They’ll just get stronger if I see you again.
Baby I’m tired of being friends.
I wanna know if you feel the same
And could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Don’t leave me in doubt.

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I’m a poor man and you’re the queen.
Oh baby, you’re the only thing that I really need.
And baby that’s why…

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can’t fight.
You’re the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

I’ll take you home real quick
And sit you down on the couch
Pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out.
Baby we can make sweet love.
Then we’ll take it nice and slow.
I'm gonna touch you like you’ve never know before
We’re gonna make love all night.

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can’t fight.
You’re the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

2008-09-07T16:02:00.001+08:00

crush (David Archuleta)

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

2008-09-06T22:59:00.002+08:00

Heartbreak time?
Apologies on the line.

gahh.. i'm really damn lazy to post.. heheh.. (:

Dear tragedy,
ifeelsomoronic): and the retarded part is that they're tv people and i still go bonkers, sighs.. tiredness ain't an excuse eh? well, it isn't for me, and i'm sorry): i'll try to make it up to you? /:

so tiredd.. i hate math): !!

*plonk*
*snore*

i like you. i like you very,
very much.

2008-09-05T19:35:00.003+08:00

Remember, remember, the fifth of November (September! hahaha! still rhymes(: ),
the gunpowder treason and plot.
i know of now reason why the gunpowder treason
should ever be forgot.

V: Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villian by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. (he carves a "V" into a sign) The only verdict is vengence; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. (giggles) Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose, so let me simply add that it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V.

Evey: Are you like a crazy person? (hahahahahaha!)

V: I'm quite sure they will say so.

gahhhhhhhh!! i like V!! omgg, lalalalala~

Is it meaningless to apologise?
Never..

2008-09-03T22:04:00.003+08:00

gah! i'm too lazy to post.. and i'm dying of body aches.. *sulk* tired. shall just leave my post with this.. :

at the time when he heard her say,
"i'd let you out when you love me,"
oddly, it sounded literal.

and it was.

next thing he knew,
he was locked in a crypt with the key to her heart,
never using it,
hoping not to break it with or without sincerity.

and years went,
he never realized how much reality pained her.

would it have been better to let her live in a world found by a lie?

2008-09-02T20:04:00.004+08:00

catch a hero by the glint of secrecy in his eyes.
catch a thief by his sinister smile.

every day's becoming cuckoo-er, ROFL.

yesterday
went to meet some random dude my sis met on friendster! hahahahaha! and he lived all the way at sengkang and we still went, so retarded, rofl. gosh, panda, we haven't gone out for so longg.. and don't touch my hair! D: !! hahaha! got back thomasssss(: !!!!! and he's all cleeeaaaaannnnnnn :D thankyou! (: and i think i just dirtied him again.. D: wanna help me get him lost again? haha!

today!
went all the way to school just to get books): !! least i'm trying to study? (: hahaha! and thenn.. nothing? heheh.. *shrugs* (: heck, HAPPY!

heheh... (:

2008-08-31T00:30:00.002+08:00

today! funfunfun(: i like today.. hahahaha! tamil tuition was damn fun! gosh.. i must be the only kid alive who'd say that, *shrugs* but still fun(: i'm so madly in love with the damn gay dude, ROFL. he's damn funny! hahahahahaha! went fot guitar, nothing much today *nods* gosh, it's damn late, and i'm still HYPERRRR!! HAHAHAH! (:

~~maybe~~ i'm marvelled by the way you love me,
~~maybe~~ i'm diffident of the way it hits me.
~~maybe~~ i'm amazed at the way you pulled me out of time,
hung me on a line.
and i was fantasized by the way i really need you.
~~just, maybe.~~

2008-08-29T19:15:00.003+08:00

pcianta -

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aahhhhhhhhhhhh!!! least the crazy molestation and grabbing of me paid off(: heheh.. now i don't care, rofl. FUNNYYYY(: i shall keep the shiny thingies safesafe.. hahahaha! HAPPY(: VERY VERY HAPPY(: retarded dance video got played in the hall!! i wanted to die): !! didn't watch it, heheh.. and we practically have hand movements to every song played, rofl. even the mandarin one, hahahaha! i love you too nurul(: heheh..

wanted very very badly to go back to evergreen, and i did. with shona! hahahahaha! "ignored" her the whole way, rofl. met alot of people, and i missed them terribly): going back made me realise how i used to be, so different, so simple, so not how i am now.. but i like the way i am now. no more cheena, no more funny beng sia-lah-lor-leh gang, and everything's more proper and sensible. but i still do miss those times, where i wasn't so self conscious, did anything i wanted and didn't care about what others thought, no need of feeling inferior to anyone/anything. i just stoned for like a few minutes, digesting everything i saw and remembered doing, good times(: and you remembered everything, hahaha! even soul-mate, ROFL. i couldn't believe you did, and btw, SHE'S NOT MY SOULMATE! HAHAHAHA! and i'm all happy i finally went back home with you again, like we used to everyday(:

once i came back itself i lost all my hyper): sighs.. and, i dunno.. i've got no mood to go online.. so yup, if anything, text me kayys(:

byebyebye.

2008-08-28T21:40:00.003+08:00

today's the 28th of august..

it's been a year already eh? :/ i guess i didn't think i'd get this far last year when everything changed. and maybe the slip of my tongue to a random kid who i just met not for too long made everything turn upside down. and i told you, somehow, in the end. and nothing changed, and i liked every bit of it(: maybe i might not have shown/said/did anything, but i really meant everything i said, no false intentions, no lies. but after everything, i did get back up. i had to, i wanted to, and now, i did.. and everything seems to be messed up now): i really hoped it wouldn't change anything, but it did, and not only me though, everything around us seems to be affected as well. you've got no idea how much i want to tell you the stuff that'd really going on, but i guess i just can't? not on the accord of not being able to talk to you, but more of the possibility of you getting hurt): i'm sorry..

it could've lasted abit longer,
i should have found out a little sooner,
and all this little things would have changed all together.
but i guess it's just a little late, -

2008-08-23T20:33:00.004+08:00

whisper to be heard

friday

i had no idea where my timetable was! till today.. i actually printed a piano piece on the back of my timetable and didn't know, hahaha! so retarded. nothing much in school, i just know i wanted to sleep during every lesson(: heheh.. i like sleeppp.. went out with geraldine and darsh! HAHAHAHAHAHA! omg, chaos. damn funny!

dear darsh,
please please close your mouth when you're laughing. we don't want a war with retarded arabian ladies [used tissue to cover half of my face, haha!] at the table(: and no more gross volcanic eruptions on your plate thingy pleasee! hahahahahaha! loveee(:

today.

woke up super super early.

~~turnedoncomforahile. readafewstuffhereandthere, didtknowwhattodo, switcheditoff): sighs..~~

did tamil homework, hahaha! i'm not a good kid, heheh.. had breakfast at 883! (: went with sis, damn retadarded. hahahaha! and mom :D

random chinese drink stall lady: *goes to my mom* ching chong ching chong
mom: coffee
sis: how'd you know what she asked what drink you wanted?
me: she's a drink stall lady. what do you want her to ask, how are you? *smile*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

came back, did a few more questions, played alot alot of piano till i went into depression, ROFL. what?! it's a sad song, hahaha! and my mom likes it, alot alot(: went for tamil tuition! and teacher didn't come, hahaha! so i was stuck with the super gay dude, rofl. the other student didn't come too, so it was only the two of us, damn fun! sat there doing an exam paper, then we heard a scream and a thud on the wall, damn funny! must be some crazy kid :D the dude from tuition's dodo-ishly retarded. he likes hamsters.. and keeps dunno how many of them.. hahahaha! he told be about him playing his gameboy and his hamster running up to the second floor of it's cage to watch him, or it's just attracted to the music, ROFL. then we was being all depressed for needing to wear glasses.

dude: i gotta wear glasses *takes of glasses* for seeing *looks very dramtic*
me: ?!?! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

then he talked about the boys in his school who get kissed by the girlfriends on like, their neck and have to rush off to the toilet to wash it off before going to class.

me: so cool!
dude: Oo *starts breathing damn fast. drinks alot alot of water*

hahahaha! he's such a goody goody boy(: i likeee.. funny! hahaha!

rushed off for guitar! saw shona at the bus stop(: some damn cute old guy sat behind me, hahaha! then she kept making fun of me cos i called him cute): !! but he was! hahahaha! then i was like, "pssttt... i can't turn!! he'd know i'm looking at him!!" hahahahahaha! guitar was damn damn damn fun/awesome/super super cool!

teacher: *talking to girl beside me* must sing! see *points to me* then one day you'd be like her and play and sing 'right here waiting'
me: who said i'd sing? *starts playing bass notes of song. continues, strums*
teacher: *plays guitar solo while i'm strumming*
everyone in class: *stops playing. listens to us*
both of us: *keeps playing till the end*
teacher: *after played finish. turns to girl* you have to sing.

hahahahaha! damn damn cool kayys! and i panicked): !! didn't want to play it wrongly, and i didn't! HAPPY(: hahahaha! saw kashmira on the way back home! gosh, imissyou): i haven't talked to you for ages.. sighs.. one day(: hahaha!

came back home and mom got me food(: i like foodd.. and me and my sis went to play badminton in the hall, again. hahaha! and i played it with my mom. she cheats! like, seriously! she hits it damn damn low, or smashed it right at my face.

mom: *smashes shuttle right at face*
me: *screams. ducks.* i don't wanna play anymore! you cheat!

hahahaha! and she keeps asking me if the clothes she's tailoring herself is nice. and gosh, it is(: and sis was being all D: about all the cuckoo looking people with the same name as her on friendster, damn funny! HAHAHAHAHA!

gosh, aftersomanyhappythingstodayimstillnotsatisfied): sighs.. somethingsbuggingme.. andithinkiknowhat): i've got no reason to talk about it. -poof-

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to mom:

you have no idea how much i'm trying to please you): i wanted to make your life a living nightmare, and do the exact opposite of everything you wanted me to do, just cos you made mine go upside down and miserable. after i heard you talked to mdmyeoh about me and she went to talk to masque, you have no idea how upset i got. and everyone knew there was something going on at home, and me): but it must have been something she said to you, cos after that you changed. even monessha noticed, you've become more understanding and extremely nice. and i felt terrible for being so unfair to you, cos you're still my mom.. reverse psychology works eh? you listened to everything, and made things seem so much eaiser. no more pressure, and i got so afraid i'd disappoint you): you listened to everything, even the most nonsensical things i say to you in the morning, making you listen to me play the piano, though i'd take forever to complete the song cos i'm playing it just cos it's nice and i've got no idea how to. you're busy and you still wait for me. you called me everyday to check on me. i used to think it's like some crazy house arrest thing, but you called to check if i was sick or anything and to see if i was going okay. when i was in the last state of going crazy about my results, though my decision was truly the last option, you didn't question me but instead wanted to help me. and i worked hard, i really really did. i hope i didn't disappoint you. and i'm really sorry if i did): sighs.. iloveyou): though i've never said it before, and only ever written it in birthday cards or in mothers' day gifts, but it's cos since i've never told you before that's why i don't. i don't know what else to say): i'm out-
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time's runnin' out

2008-08-21T19:06:00.002+08:00

most pristine water,
don't waste it on me

moday/tuesday/wednesday
i've got terrible memory and i don't remember a thing): !! hahaha! oh well(:

today
i've got alot of things to say): but i'm just too lazy and not bothered to type it here. soo, if i ever talk about it to anyone, well then, so you know *nods* and that's it. i've got nothing else to say.

confused. frustrated. depressed.

imnotleaving(: -

2008-08-17T17:08:00.003+08:00

bang goes the gun,
and it hits the heart.
enjoy the silence.

yesterday

-just, loving you-

funn(: ROFL. wanted to go for kiddy's guitar lesson.

1. i was exhausted [sounds so so wrong, haha!]
2. the kiddies annoyance would kill me. don't like kiddies
3. i'd feel like a pedo. i'm not like you(: hahahahahaha! *wiggles eyebrows* d:

today
woke up at 5 and couldn't sleep after seeing your text. ah! i'm sorry! i fell asleep): and i just stoned in bed waiting for your reply): 4moreyearskayys? (:

piano! gah! so funn.. i love my teacher(: she's damn nice! she didn't kill me for not practising, heheh.. 4 songs at the same time.. ?!?! and i actually wanted to learn more, waltz(:

teacher: you gotta pronouce his name properly. chopin [says it in the proper way, which sounds like sho-pan. HAHAHAHAHA!]
me: chop. in. *with hand actions*

me: *plays song with only right hand*
teacher: where'd the left hand go? no need huh?
me: no need *smile.smile.*

teacher: *plays pretty pretty song with right hand only*
me: where'd the left hand go? no need is it?
teacher: hur, you learn fast.. no need *smile.smile.*
me: you learn fast too

hahahaha! fun fun fun! cuckoo videos! i love jap people! they're so HAPPY HYPER(:

so cool! they're damn open! [i forgot the correct word, tsk): now it seems all wrong, haha!] oh! outgoing! hahaha! ooo.. sad jap show): *sniffle* omgg, damn damn sad! uhhh..

*movie just ended*
mom: *opens the door*
me: you know you know! damn sad! *talks alot alot of nonsense with damn sad after every sentence and finished telling the story in thirty seconds*
mom: *walks over. kisses me. walks out.*

i love her(: hahahaha! and she called me a crazy cos i was walking around with my blankey moaning about how sad the show was, haha! funny :D dad's watching badminton..

sis: *was talking about how our chinese teacher asked her who she supported in badminton, and she saying malaysia and how she was being an all daddy's girl*
dad: of cos! malaysia will win. only smart people will know that
me: *from inside the room. screams* die! malaysia! die!
dad: see, only smart people do know(:

so mean! *sulk*

mom: *was folding clothes. looks at me* you don't where any shirt is it? why that one [sis. hahahaha!] have so many clothes?
me: heheh.. naked(:

hahaha!

ohoh! people who watch incredible tales! here me! here me!

incredible tales
tonight
10.30 pm

it moved to a later time): !! damn you olympics, pfftt.. oh well(: hmm.. don't think there's anything else..

quick steps,
no gaps.

2008-08-15T21:40:00.003+08:00

closer to perfection,
and it's a match

thursday
math, science. science rocked! math sucked): gosh, i really gotta do something about that. i can't suck at it forever. and i've finally got an ambition :D which needs math *sulk* pfftt.. oh well, study! (:

today
d&t! damn damn easy! hahaha! last minute i realised i could draw all the stuff when cbl kept giving us the answer

cbl: girls! the answers are on the visualiser. don't look okay. do it yourselves.
class: *everyone looks up and copies*

!! hahahahaha! that wasn't even helpful. finished it! HAPPY(: not gonna fail, heheh.. tamil oral rocked! heheh.. muthi = loveee(: ROFL! HAHAHAHAHAHA! and this'd be the only time i'm ever saying that *nods* kayys, nothing more. lazy, tired-

let your heart do all the talking-

2008-08-13T19:26:00.002+08:00

lift up your heart,
let go of your fear,
our time is near.

i realised i'm blogging like, every 2 days *shrugs* so cuckoo. anyways,

yesterday
english and geog): gosh.. geog was damn !! everything seemed correct, uhh.. english went way wat more better then geog, sighs): justhopingidontfailanything *nods*

today!
tamil and lit): [there's a sad face on every exam, gosh. HAPPY(: ] tamil sucks): !! pfftt.. wrote some funny dictionary meaning to words.. *shrugs* what.. i couldn't find a word to replace it(: fell asleep halfway and got back up, and still had time after that, heheh.. people beside me, feel the pressure, moohahahaha! finish lit super fast too, gosh my hand hurts): and now my handwriting's all messy, ahhh): !!! *sulk*

so funny. sis went to a therapist person thingy to get her shoulder fixed [?!?! hahahaha!] but then her left shoulder was facing the doctor person when the right one was hurting.

doctor: *massages left shoulder* painful?
monessha: no
doctor: huh? you're supposed to feel something, you feel nothing at all
monessha: no, my right shoulder's aching though
doctor: pfftt.. *moves over to the other side* you could have said so earlier..

hahahahaha! so retarded! (: sighs.. so much to study): andifeelallfunnyagain, tsk): heheh.. HAPPY(: though, something's amiss *nods* -sititahwaedidoogyrevatogeviknihtidna- sighs, it can't be right *nods* (: kayys, nothing more.

minutes away-

2008-08-11T19:23:00.004+08:00

you're not one to kiss and tell,
but word is you kiss pretty well-

yesterday
changed piano lesson to math lesson. omgg, 2 hours of maths *&^$%*% i.wanted.to.die): !! but it was fun, i just hate math. hahahaha! i don't wanna fail): pfftt.. must study(: studied math.. went to play badminton with my teacher, loveher(: she's like, 40+ years old, hahaha! and she's seen me GROW! (: from a crazy little kindergarten kid who cries for everything till now, hahaha! she's damn good! wth, haha! i lost practically every single shuttle she hit to me. what.. i haven't played it in ages.. played again later, won every game(: even monessha. i won kayys! don't be a dodo head :D burnt the side of my ankle, still hurts): ouchies.. plaster! the lady at the community centre who gave me the plaster didn't want to see the blood thingy, hahaha! had to leave earlier than wanted, had to study): sighs.. oh well, hoping it's worth it(:

today!
had to get up early to go for tamil tuition [had to do homework first, heheh.. what.. no one likes homework(: ] the boys at the tamil class are damn funny! hahahahaa! we have like loads and loads of fun, damn cuckoo! one of them told us that he liked to kill his hamters so he wouldn't have to take care of them ?!?!?! that's just sad! and we had to write some compo thingy and had to use the given words, and he didn't use them and i did. and the teacher was all, "she used them! *looks at me* i can just kiss you" me: "ooo... Oo !!" hahahahaha!

i.didn't.want.to.get.out.of.bed): i like dreaming.. :D hahahaha! i love pillow(: oh oh! funny pic, sis sent it to me.

it's funny.. hahahahaha! cute(: teacher came over to my place today! i look too smart in my glasses! tsk): and my eye sight's going all funny now.. oh oh! and i'm long sighted, which the optician person thought was damn weird.. *shrugs* gahh.. sighs.. shallwearthecuckoothingsforcommontests): sighs.. okay then(: she was like, "you've got like some double life. look like a nerd at home and study, then go out and action" wth, hahahahaha! i don't kayys! *sulk* but funny(: studied finish geog, heheh.. HAPPY(: now gotta work on lit and science, and i've got no clue what'd coming out for D&T! shit): die.. oh well! (: kayys, i'm out-

dear tragedy,
it's all a lie.
breath taker,
smile faker.

2008-08-09T22:19:00.003+08:00

you make me smile,
please stay for awhile.
just say you'd never leave,
without me saying please.

no. guitar): !! ah): so sad. i was actually looking forward to it): i think there's math tomorrow, uhhh... it's. so. ah): and i need it so so badly. sighs.. watched NDP! gosh, it finished damn early this year. usually it'd end around 11 and now it ended at 8. weird..

i'm dying look at this pic, hahaha! so so cool! ahhh(:

this is just damn damn cool! omg, nurul! i love you for this(: so funny! hahahaha!

kayys, tired): very very tired. mom said i've been looking all exhausted for days.. sighs.. ): gotta.study.tomorrow. *nods* yup! shall go sleep..

goodnight~

2008-08-09T10:35:00.004+08:00

champagne brown matches your eyes,
every night got wasted in sighs.
no rewinds, no set backs,
no heartbreak times-

thursday
hmm.. d&t in the morning. man.. i hate that lesson so so much, so boring.. then recess, nothing. english, nothing.. tamil! was dodo stuff, a camera! hahaha!

looks abit cuckoo, hmm.. *shrugs*

least i didn't get caught drawing it? :D i've got a kazillion tamil homework): !! uhh.. then cs, *sulk* i hate cs, so so much. and miss jean's really nice, she didn't scold us for so much incomplete work, gotta start abit of work in it. pbl.. started, HAPPY(: waited super super long for darsh, hahahaha! tsk tsk, i'm so disappointed in you :D racerrr.. i've never seen you so happy, ROFL. that's good(: now i don't have to make you happier [you'll never kick my butt! moo-hahahaha! you can let me kick yours? (: ]

sat down at home taking cuckoo pics!

i like picture.. i've got pontianak nails! ah): don't.wanna.cut.them): !!

heheh.. you gotta look at the spiderman's hands! so cute! ahh! haahahaha! iloveyoumoron(: no, kayys, actually i don't. heck(:

friday
national day celebration! i just realised that practically the whole of masque is in anklung, damn sad! hahaha! joined g3(: dini! "fly! fly! butterfly!" hahahaha! so funny, senior and junior class won(: gah! i'll miss g1 next year and ever more, so so much):

felt funny the whole day, no idea why.. went out with hilary! hahahaha! so fun! gah! Battle Ready Armour! ROFL. lucky i was wearing a skirt, or i'd look like some perv, so wrong! ran around kinokuniya, omgg.. you kept abandoming me! i was so lost! ah): met [i took damn long to remember how to spell that! haha!] min yee and ximian like, 3 times. hahaha! so funny. and i sent you back home again! ah! hahaha! we saw the cuckoo cactus :D

skiddle dee, skiddle dumm..
i think bugs are finer than rum..
[say it in a piratey voice! haha!]

heheh.. dontcareifyourmemoryisgoneornot. i'd kill her for you?(: imissthem):

and ah): unexpected stuff, so so many unexpected stuff. i'm sorry i lost that spark in me after so long, but i guess i just got over it): imsososorry):

today(:
didn't want to wake up, heheh.. so many pretty pretty dreams(: sighs.. so nice, gah. NO TAMIL TUITION! (: well, happy and sad i guess. happy cos i don't gotta rush the homework, sad cos i actually like going there, the lesson's damn fun! funny gay boy(: and his friend, haha! guitar later crossing fingers the ten year old girl permanently switched to my lesson. doubt so, by i still can hope, heheh.. :D kayys, done for now(:

stand back up,
look up, look forward.
stand back up):

2008-08-06T22:09:00.002+08:00

memories are playing like a film without sound
-
As we go on, we remember
All the times we, had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever
[the graduation song - vitamin c]
-
today! science! damn fun! teacher and student fight, hahahaha! omg, so cuckoo. no one can keep quiet in our class. then umm.. english! everyone was copying answers, relief teacher, she was damn nice! so fun(:

me: everyone's gotta love our class
nurul: i bet no teacher would ever forget coming here
heheh.... (:

emmy.. emmy.. feel better kayys. you gotta come back to school, i'm dying of boredom. we'd go scare more people in the arts con kayys, haha! and ooo... we made a mascot in one period and a few hours in school, haha! damn fun! dini(: went back home with masque(: i keep forgetting we have so much fun going home together *nods* oh oh! thank you for not abandoning me! hahaha!

dini: dini is a bisexual name
nurul: bisexual?! i think you meant unisexual.
hahahahaha! and geraldine called herself a smart ass. ?!?! who calls themselves smart, then ass. ROFL. addie! be glad i forgot what you said, or it'd be up here too, haha!

*me and geraldine sitting at the bus stop*
*random uncle cycles past* : kaaa... puih! [spits at the side of the bus stop]
me and geraldine: *looks at each other, bursts out laughing*

hahaha! then today we were thinking about how itchy our throats would be if we did that, haha! so retarded.

98.7 jokes
cha sao pau and spaghetti we enemies. so one day, spaghetti went up to cha sao pau and beat him up and ran away. cha sao pau was all sad and wanted to take revenge. so the next day, he sa maggi mee. maggi me was this random girl and she was all 'la la la la laa..' and hopping here and there, and cha sao pau was like: 'oi! you! you think you perm your hair i won't know is it?! *beats up maggi mee* hahahahahahaha! omg, so retarded! ROFL.

nothing much already. falling sick, and my fitness is dropping): tsk. and i look exhausted when i'm extremely hyper everyday.. sighs.. i'm done.

second times the charm?

2008-08-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

memories; pictures
in a broken frame

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACER! gosh.. you're really old D: ah! oh well, hahaha! one step closer to granny hood *nods* and you never know, soon enough you'd only be able to eat oatmeal like old people, heheh.. oatmeal(: [they're very very healthy. not meant for kids *nods* :D]

uh, school. nothing much. have alot of catching up to do cos i've missed alot of days, many presentations and gotta rush alot of stuff, and study): sighs.. study.. ah, you): after all the scolding i got, and now you're being terribly nice to me. why): and now i feel awful and practically forcing myself to study my butt off so i'd do well.. reverse psychology, pfftt.. sighs..

emmy! you didn't come to school today): feel better dudette! and once you're all better, i'll let you steal my stuff [for 2 seconds(: ] kayys! *nods* come back to school):

kayy, sad song): omgg.. so sad..

i've got nothing else to say.. ):

*snap*

2008-08-04T22:03:00.002+08:00

now? later?
now):

i studied! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D rofl. emmy.. dude.. you can't fall sick *nods* you're my i-throw-things-at-you partner): i'll be super extremely very very nice to cos you're sick, uh huh! won't throw anymore stuff at you. and once you're better! *evil smile* (: and then! we shall go scare more people at the arts con, haha! so fun! ahh.. iloveyouemmy(: ROFL.

went for hockey match, damn fun! hahahaha! jaya! you gave everyone like a heart attack when you defended the ball, hahaha! and everyone was like, shouting your name. damn cuckoo(: you gotta love the people at the sidelines, haha!

omg, so weird. went back home at 8, and nothing happened. ?!?! something's really messed up.. usually i'd get all the world's nagging for coming after 6 [though i stay retardedly far away] and then now.. ahh.. so weird.. maybeitsjustcosyouneedmyhelpnow, thoughithinkitstotalnonsense.

gotta, have to,
and hopefully will-

2008-08-03T10:06:00.002+08:00

and it's tonight

ah! ah! ah! haven't posted for so long): oh well, nothing to say about the past few days, just glad everything's over [?] i guess, and suddenly everyone's abnormally, nice. sighs, nowifeelbad, tsk): but nothing's gonna change *nods* it's always been like that for years and this year isn't gonna be any different.

missed alot alot of school, sighs.. not gonna miss any other day anymore(: and gotta start studying for CTs.. one more week! ahhhhh!!! no time): and i gotta gotta do better than last sem or i'd be killed beyond revival *nods* i'm. dying. in. math. *dies*

monessha... *scratches clothes* heheh... i like being [evil] older(: you! omg, you made me feel super super evil with a 250 word thingy, ROFL. *eats head* :D

sighs.. song(: meanssomucheh?

don't think i'll be blogging as much as before, maybe till final years.. yup(: i'm done-

in a flash,
it's gone.

2008-07-30T20:52:00.002+08:00

touch, felt, heard.
and everything stopped.
heartbeat.

yesterday.. yesterday.. nothing much. had to take tamil test at the study pavillion, pfftt.. fell asleep): !! didn't have much time, just did it anyhow. we had lit! ahh! so retarded!

*having quiz between lady macbeth and questioner*
questioner: why do you seek our help
nishan [at her seat]: cos macbeth found a new woman
questioner: what if we cannot offer you help?
me [in my seat]: i'll go find another man
questioner: how do you think you can persuade macbeth?
me [in my seat]: i'll bring him to a room and act all sexy

hahahaha! omg, damn damn fun! then nishan told this damn gay story, where macbeth found lady macbeth and some other man in a room, and asked if he could join them, haha! so funny! :D
went back home with masque, after so so long! gah!

[in the train]
*nat calls popular*
nat: hello. can i check my reservations for breaking dawn?
*pause*
nat: breaking dawn
the rest: *stares at her*
nat: breaking dawn. .......... b. r. a. k. i. n. g. eh, wait! b. r. e. a. k. i. n. g. d. a. w. n.
the rest: *?!?!?!
nat: huh? oh, my name's natasha *pause* natasha. *pause* n. a. t. a. s. h. a.
the rest: *bursts out laughing*

hahahahahaha! then later she told us it was some filipino lady, ROFL.

then today! nothing much.. wrote on alot of people's hands, hahaha! today was super super fun(: actually, i've got alot to say, just have no idea how to phrase it, so heck :D shall leave everything in me, heheh.. kayys, i'm done-

forever.

2008-07-28T23:27:00.002+08:00

back, back,
back to where it ended,
and it re-began.

spent whole day at the library stoning, damn cuckoo! haha! least i wasn't bored out of my mind at home :D had to rush back for doctor's review, tsk): and realised everything got worse and i'm dying.. [kidding! rofl] *shrugs* she said if this meds doesn't work i gotta go do some damn x-ray thingy at the hospital, maybe. well, least we know it won't work, pfftt.. and she's all freaked out about my tiredness and not telling me much about it D: maybe there's something up with that. gah! i'm too young to die! nooo!

i gotta wear glasses! tsk): 0.0 <- !! uhhh.... damn, will only wear it in class, and the rest of the day, shall keep it in my pocket, like primary school :D omg, ex link card.. i. want. to. die. damn, i really gotta get that thing lost, it's not dying in the washing machine [went in there thrice already, heheh..] D: and you! stole all my picks! shall bribe you with chocolate, heheh...

gotta. sleep. so tired.. i forgot how to use dreamweaver! like, totally dunno anything, tsk): how.. how.. die): sighs.. oh well, gotta figure out something about that. kayys, i'm done,

but just,
not from where it began-